The Longing to Find that Innocence Again
Often when we are searching, we are driven by an intens passion to know, to wake up or just to know what is true. We have this sense of separation and a longing to find that innocence again. A longing to come home. But the thinking tries to be helpful and tries to help out. It offers advice how to fix this painful sense or separation. Practices, methods, teachings, words, concepts, beliefs, hopes, fears, dreams. And then it starts to become quite a self-obsession. An addiction to fixing, adding and grasping. So what was quite innocent - just that kind of open longing that wants to be acknowledged, to be met in who you really are - now becomes this agitated doing. It means something negative about me and so I don't want to acknowledge that it's here. But it is here to be felt. Screaming to be acknowledged. So at some point perhaps you get exhausted with running away from it. Running into some dream. Maybe it is time to wake up to reality.
DIALOGUE 1: The sensation doesn't need to be fixed. Wether you like it or not, it is welcome to be here and to stay.
DIALOGUE 2: I want to make connection in an open and honest way.
DIALOGUE 3: It is nice to play the spiritual game for a while but at a certain point you have to see that this 'me' will never reach any permanent state.
DIALOGUE 4: The preference of thought has got nothing to do with what you really are, which has no preference at all. It just sees everything, including thought.